Someone That Turns Me Off!

Letter Dictionary:
Graham=Someone she dated.
Dundee=Someone she never dated but admired.
Adam=Me=Her son=Someone who'd have preferred never reading ANY of this.

Thursday
Adam-
The guy (Graham) really is a Jerk! He's NO Dundee either! He's not at all masculine. A wimp! I can't stand weak men! That's why he likes that German lady. She's happy to take control. And Adam, I can't go to bed with someone that turns me off! I don't think you could either!
I don't know if there's anyone out there for me. If not, I'll just do the best I can on my own. I'd rather be alone than put up with someone's behavior that makes me want to throw up. If I weren't so particular, I could have been re-married 10 times already!
Take care of you for me. You're the most important man in my life. (Until another comes along.)
Love-
Mom

I Will Have To Be Committed

So let me get this straight...
HER mom, drives HER crazy?
Hmmm...

Sunday
Hello.
Thought I'd plan on coming out for 2 nights. Alone. I need to have a little space from Nan for 2 days and I want to see Truman. So, I'm planning on beginning of March. Will discuss dates with you to what's convenient for you. I would stay at the hotel only because I need very much to be alone or I will have to be committed. My identity has been lost just when I almost had one and I have to recover it.
Love,
Mom
P.S. Could you send Clive Davis, who is again head of Arista Records, a sample of your music? He's 71 years old now and Jewish and I think he would listen to you. Try!
Did you and Maria start your taxes?

 

Are You Getting My Mail??

I believe it was my grandmother who use to write me checks for money she didn't actually have. As for my mother..., what mail?

Sunday
Dear Adam-
Since that check bounced, and they deducted $30 or so from your account, make sure you have enough in the account so that other checks you write won't bounce. I know something like that can really foul you up!! When I told her, all she said was, OH! Just don't trust any other checks from her. They're all full of shit!
Are you getting my mail?? You never seem to answer any of my questions!
Love,
Mom

 

Don't Ask Me Anything About My Date

A lot of you will probably say, "Good for her for having a date!" However, keep in mind, sometimes I feel like the parent: What's his motive? Who is he? Where will you be going? Is he out of his mind?
See? I really DO care!

 

Warm Coat and Hat

It's not always just what's IN the envelope, but ON. For ALL to see.

 

Please Don't Get Angry At This

Now why would I get...

Tuesday
Dear Adam-
Did you ever stop to consider why you always get so angry with me? I'm only interested in the best for you. I'm not your enemy, and lately, you've been treating me as if I am.
If I'm not always positive and do not always come up laughing, it's because I've not always had it easy. I don't have a husband to protect me like some women do and I've learned not to be so trusting.
So, don't be so hard on me and so judgmental. I love you-you know that-and if I say things to irritate you, stop to think where I'm coming from. I only want the best for you because you deserve it.
A thought. And please don't get angry at this-
Until you're ready to get married, you should use some protection because you don't want to be a father before any marriage takes place.
Love, mom

 

New Year's Resolution! Love, Mom

Letter dated Wednesday, January 1st, 1994.
Hey...at least she started THINKING about change. I'm hoping I'll see some results by the time MY kids are in therapy. Happy New Year!


Wed.
Adam-
I copied 4 pages of a book I read. I am in the process of making a big move-& it scares me because I don't know what is in store for me-
I saw a lot of myself in this book called-'How to take charge of your Life' by Berkowitz-I have to give up the feeling of being a help-less victim-It is not easy but I am going to try.
If, at times, I slip back-please don't get angry at me-It is all part of my growth. I need you to be understanding of a painful process I am in the process of-
Love,
Mom

 

Waiting

Dated 3/31/1998
My mother never remarried, but always keeps the hope alive.
Notice the "ME-MOM".

 

Hello, my name is your mom, and I'm insane.

Self-realization. Acknowledgment. Admitting you have a problem. Commendable. Vital to the process of healing. And in the journey to improve one's relationships with others and themselves, A HUGE FIRST STEP!

But without sounding too insensitive here...

WHEN DO THE OTHER ELEVEN KICK IN?

October 28, 2002

Hello-
Adam- I know you would agree with this saying in regard to me!

Love, Mom